I have been on Cyclophosphamide now for about 3 months and it was going really well. Well about 3 weeks ago I had a scleritis flare which was really painful and gave me a week long migraine because all of the eye socket was also inflamed. I have had 2 orbital floor steroid injections over the last 3 weeks and now i’m sporting a lovely bruise under my right eye.
Anyway I digress, back to kerataconus news. My doctor said that I desperately need grafts in both eyes but particularly in the left and we have been working to get the left one as healthy as possible before surgery, i.e. getting rid of the scleritis and corneal neovascularisation as much as possible. If I have the graft with the blood vessels growing into it the transplant will most likely reject and be a disaster (my doctors words).
I saw him on Wednesday and he is now saying that the vision in that eye is so bad due to the blood vessels we may as well do the surgery soon as we have nothing to lose if it fails. I have no useful vision out of that eye now even with a lens in so I tend to agree with him. It will make the surgery a bit more complex as he will have to cauterise all of the blood vessels first. I don’t just have a few blood vessels I have loads and they are really deep and growing into the middle of the cornea.
I am seeing him again in 2 weeks for a review of the scleritis flare so I will try and pin him down to a timescale of when my surgery is likely to be then. They are thinking about increasing my chemo to try and stop the break through flares which may not be fun as I might get increased side effects. I am prepared to do whatever I need to fix my eyes though.
The pic is a corneal topo of my eye taken probably about 8 years ago, its the only topo I have. I reckon my eye has changed heaps since then I would love to see an updated one!
Well that’s it for now, I have surgery in my not too distant future which I am very excited about, It will be nice to have an eye with some vision in it as currently I am seeing through a white haze.
I have been on the Cyclophosphamide for just over 6 weeks and although my eye pain has got a lot better I am getting some horrible side effects.
The first couple of weeks were great, I was like chemo is awesome, haha then it hit me with a vengeance in weeks 3 and 4 with plummeting blood pressure. One weekend it was so low I couldn’t hardly stand upright without falling over. Fortunately that one has almost resolved itself.
The latest side that I have hit me in week 6, Myalgia! Omg the muscle pain is all over my body and horrible. Every single muscle in my body hurts. My joints hurt too but the muscle pain is worse. I notice it is a lot worse when I get chilly like when the air-con is a little bit cool at work or in bed in the early hours of the morning.
I am finding it hard to walk up stairs, and going for my daily walk feels impossible at the moment, I feel weak and sore, a bit like an old lady actually. I had my flu needle at work today and the nurse really hurt me because she pinched my skin together before putting the needle in. I couldn’t even put my fitbit on this morning because it hurt too much to have it on my wrist.
I hope that this isn’t going to be a long term thing but I kind of suspect it will be. The Endoxan is well and truly in my system so I don’t think I will be feeling better any time soon.
I have to be on it for about another 6 months so joyful times to look forward to!
I guess I need to look at the positives in that it is helping with my eye disease, but when you feel like crap it’s really hard to look at the positives, you just wallow in self pity a bit as the pain takes over.
I am still going to try and do my daily walk, even if it is slower and shorter, I think it be moving will probably help. I hope so anyway!
For the past 6 weeks my eyes have been really good in terms of the scleritis. I have had a white eye and no pain, even my vision seemed to be a bit sharper. I was really hopeful that the Cyclophosphamide (Endoxan) was working so that I could concentrate on getting my vision better and my eyes ready for corneal transplants.
Yesterday afternoon I seemed to start a flare up, today my right eye is a little red and quite painful. I am freaking out and a bit gutted actually because I was really thinking that this was the medication for me and things would just get better and better. Today my vision is awful and I am really struggling.
I saw my eye doctor yesterday morning and he was pleased with my progress, then a couple of hours later I’m flaring, how is that for bad luck, it could have happened when I was at the eye doctor!
The Endoxan has been a bit of a bumpy road so far, the first couple of weeks I felt fabulous then I felt like absolute death for a couple of weeks as my blood pressure plummeted. I could hardly stand up without falling over. We got the BP sorted out and I started to come good again, until yesterday. Now I feel really worried that I am going to fail another treatment.
I have a swelling under the right eye and the doctor thinks that there may be a cyst in there caused by the regular orbital floor injections I have been having over the last year or so. It looks ugly like I always have a bruised eye. If it’s not a cyst it will probably be thickening of the tissue from the needles. I hope they can do something about it.
Luckily I am seeing my Rheumatologist tomorrow to see what my bloods are doing and to get some feedback on my progress. Hope I get some positive news, maybe I need a dose adjustment.
Wow we just had a snake in the office and all the girls were like OMG theres a snake, and i’m like what snake, where? just shows how bad my vision really is. That makes me really sad.
Finally for the first time in over 2 years I am pain free from scleritis (eye pain). That is amazing and down to the Cyclophosphamide I started taking about 4 weeks ago. The first week I felt terrible, really nauseas then I came good and felt great for a couple of weeks. I was thinking this is brilliant, then in week 4 I am getting light headed, dizziness and fatigue. It’s worth it not to have that awful horrendous eye pain!
Assuming my bloods are ok when I go back to the rheumatologist in 3 weeks I can move on and start thinking about my corneal transplants and where I need to be to be able to have my surgery. I have severe corneal neovascularisation, the vessels I have are big and deep and there are plenty of them. They are not ghost vessels either, they are still active and blood filled. I can’t have my surgery whilst they are active as the graft would reject. In my doctors words “it would be a disaster”. One positive thing, in my eye check-up last week my doctor felt like there were less vessels in the right eye and maybe the Cyclophosphamide has got rid of some already. I hope so that would be amazing.
I had two wishes, 1 was to get rid of the pain – check! and 2 was to be able to see properly. So I am halfway there! Point 2 is going to be harder to achieve, every time I see my eye doctor I’m like can I get my graft yet and always the answer is no. Hopefully one day soon I will get a yes. I am so desperate to improve my vision, I really struggle in particular at work reading my computer screen. Some days are really awful and I can hardly see a thing.
I know having a graft doesn’t automatically guarantee good vision but it’s surely got to be better than looking through a forest of blood vessels, even if I have to wear a lens on it I will be ecstatic.
Keeping my fingers crossed that next time I get a check up even more vessels have melted away.
Over two years on and my scleritis is still flaring continuously and at times is extremely painful. I have failed prednisone, rituximab, metrotrexate and azathioprine treatments.
My doctors have brought out the really big guns this time, I have just been started on 100mg Cyclophosphamide daily. Already I am feeling nauseous so I know this isn’t going to be good.
Before taking the med I was reading up on it because I like to be informed about what i’m taking and the side effects are horrific. If the only thing that happens to me is I get nauseous and lose my hair I will be doing ok! Yes you can even lose your hair at low doses. One of the common side effects that is concerning me a bit is that you can get really bad cystitis and blood in the urine. Because the drug is so toxic it can’t sit in your bladder you have to keep drinking and peeing to keep it clear. It can’t be taking at night because it cant sit in your bladder for that long.
Well this is day 1 of the treatment, I have to go for fortnightly blood tests and see my rhumatologist again in 6 weeks. Lets hope this works!
By the way another side effect is appetite loss, I really hope I get that one because I have medication induced weight gain and I am desperate to get some off. I will be really happy if I get that one!
Will keep you updated, have a good weekend.
It’s been a while since my last post on here as I now have separate blogs for my hobbies. Thought I would do an eye update as they are still pretty crappy.
Saw my eye doctor and rheumatologist yesterday, had an orbital floor steroid injection in the right eye. Have a swollen and black eye appearing this morning but the scleritis pain is easing already so that’s really good.
The Rhumy noted that I have failed Rituximab. Azathioprine, prednisone and methotrexate (I’m still on the MTX but the sides are awful, I take it on Friday then the weekend is a write off). The next step is a cyclophosphamide infusion. This is worrying me a little because it much more hard core than anything else I have tried and you can lose your hair even at low doses so I don’t really know how I feel about that. I know that we have to try everything we can because nothing has worked so far and I am in chronic pain, some days the pain is so great I just lay there moaning to myself. Still it’s a big step taking such a strong chemo drug.
My vision is really variable as I have more than one problem – keratoconus, scleritis and severe corneal neovascularisation. Some days I can hardly see at all and other days my vision is pretty clear. At the moment I have not much vision at all in the left eye as the inflammation has made the cornea hazy. At my eye check yesterday I was just counting fingers, couldn’t read the letters even through the pin hole. This will clear pretty soon with the eye drops but it makes for such a hard life when you have to get up for work every morning.
I can’t even enjoy my colouring much at the moment the one thing that is keeping me sane right now is reading on my kindle, I adore reading and escaping into a good book. I can’t read normal books but on my kindle I can have a lovely big text and manage to read, even though I only get one sentence on a page and it gives my thumb a workout changing the page every 2 seconds lol
Sorry for any typos, can’t see too well at the moment!
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